I dont know how many of u are like me.. i like to keep my feelings to myself even though i have problems tt r hurting me.. or i'm sad.. I will just pretend to be happy in front of my friends.. den go hm n cry in my room.. some of u may think I 'm a cheerful girl.. but I'm just hurting so much inside.. when im sad, I turn to God but I feel so sad still.. at times, I just feel like running away.. and never to come back.. I'm just so empty inside.. I'm tryin to hold on so much tt I'm tearing apart.. on one hand, i feel tt I need someone to talk to but at the same time, i feel tt no one can help.. I just wanna go to the corner of the world and just cry.. when my parents or sisters come into the room, I just wipe my tears and stare at my computer screen to do my work.. I know i hv changed since I entered tp.. but it's just so hard to go back.. but i'm glad tt by seeing my friends everyday helps make my days better.. up till now, i dont know what my purpose in tp is.. is it to be this empty gal tt i am now? or what? God I need u, like...... RIGHT NOW!
Saturday, October 20, 2007
1:25 PM
yan
Mingbei
Shiqi
Val
Jasper
Hey guys! well, im glad it's finally the weekend! phew! finally! haha.. well, next wk is the last wk of sch n im so excited! ha, anw, got my timetable for the next few blocks im my 2nd sem! i got italian! woots! so happy! haha.. God ans my prayer! ha.. mayb after learning i wanna go italy, nv been there.. haha.. well, there's just so much assignments to pass up next wk tt i so need God's grace and help.. well, last thurs i had to do my work in sch agn coz i dozed off he night b4.. so i had so much to do! and yet, shi, val and mingbei waited for me! we wanted to go for lunch.. in the end, we went for dinner.. sigh. thanks guys for waiting for me! it was so sweet of mingbei and val to help me print my stuff and for shi to help me cut the pics! these gals are the best! not forgettin jasper who helped me on wed.. man, i dunno what will i do without u guys! thanks man! not forgettin yan who helped me wif my write up even though she was so busy.. anw, went to gym ytd after sch wif shi.. we felt so happy after tt coz we lost calories! muahaha, ok, lame.. hmmm, im so excited to go for the cuckoo couture show ltr at butter factory! ha.. so fun! and it's at 1030pm! im so happy that my parents allow me to go.. i know it will b fun! ha, all the best to the ppl participating.. thanks wilson for gettin us invited.. haha.. well, i posted the pics of the wonderful ppl that helped and waited for me, these guys rocks! gotta go.. c ya!
3rd wk of sch! hurray!
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
9:19 PM
before I start writing a new post, i would like to say thanks to ben, joelle and cm for comforting me.. well, it's the third week of sch! woots! do u know what does this mean? it means this block is ending! yay! haha.. but there's just so many assignments.. haha.. nvm, i shall hang on in there a while more.. anw, on sun, mabel and my treat frm Joel at NYNY was cancelled coz we didn want to leave the others out.. hah.. in the end, it turned out to b really fun! n I think his was the biggest outing ever for me la!we went to eat pepper lunch at dhoby ghaut exchange.. ha, we practically took up the whole place.. haha.. there was me, mabel, renee, matthew, joel, john, jason, max, max's cousin, julian, alex, gabriel, shawn ng, marcus and asriel. i'm sorry if i left anyone out.. haha. but it was fun! haha.. poor marcus, joel and matthew.. they were counting down to the no. of hrs left b4 they booked in! haha.. anw, i also managed to go to a fashion show at vivo city! my first ever.. haha.. it was really fun! ha. well, this wk has been alright so far.. haha.. just came back not too long ago from bugis coz we had to buy copic markers.. it was sooooooooooooo ex! 24 markers for $127.80! anw, thanks jasper, shiqi, mingbei, py and val for waiting for me to eat lunch together! im so so sorry for letting u guys wait for me.. but i was really touched! thank you so so much! haha, anw, we waited at art friend for the markers for so long! haha.. so we were kinda exploring the stuff they sell at art friend.. haha.. we wore these weird but cute hats and just started taking pics! it was so retarded but fun! haha.. laughed like crazy.. haah.. well, gotta go back to do my work now.. haha.. enjoy the pics from art frien! thanks shi~! c ya! p.s: sorry yan, ying and shi, i will do the quiz u guys tagged me soon! haha..
Thursday, October 11, 2007
5:57 PM
after getting dunked!
us at macs, marina square!
Val's birthday!
Birthday girl!
crusade potluck dinner
us at pacific plaza!
Sigh, this is the 2nd wk of the new sem and im so stressed! sigh.. well, im glad my last wk of the hols went well.. ha, we celebrated val's birthday on the 2nd wk of the hols and she's 17! managed to go and do my hair wif shi and i went out wif the lovelies too! haha.. i also went on a few outings with the crusaders which was fun! haha.. im glad i met up with them! i also got my first ever dunking in sentosa during our crusader's outing by eric! ha, but it was fun! not forgetting last wk i went out wif the lovelies to marina square! while we were eating ice-cream, i was laughing so much! it was just so fun! haha.. shiqi really made me so happy wif all her craziness.. haha.. anw, there's just so much assignments to do and i just feel so tired going through all this.. i spoke to my parents abt how i feel.. I just feel like giving all these up.. its just too hard! during other director's talk on mon.. i was encouraged my our director, moses.. but... i just feel tt mayb this is not what i want.. u know, its so so easy to quit but im just gonna stay here.. sigh.. coz of all my friens and my family's support just makes me wanna continue.. but i still feel lost.. sigh..anw, here r some pics i took from the past 3weeks.. enjoy!
